Overwhelmed Obsession

He comes in to my dreams

And the feeling over whelms me

I become as if I am obsessed

I cannot stop thinking of him not even for a moment

I feel him calling to me

But unable to tell if it is real

Or my imagination

I shell go insane

 Without control

From the moment I seen him

I was attached

Addicted to him

Even a moment without talking

Was hell

I felt insane calling him 50 times per day.

Still it kills me not to hear his voice

                Nor kiss his lips.

All I want is to be near him to see him

                                To stare in to his eyes.

For now the only time I see him is when he comes into my dreams

This is why I never want to be awake.

Pass life elephant ride

My favorite fantasy

is one of you and me

riding an elephant.

Through the jungle

I am holding you tight

you turn to me

and start kissing me

every part of me start to quiver

as you start touching me everywhere

you pull my saree up and my panty off

and me on top of you

kissing some you come into to me

my sari blouse open

my bosom heaving

with your every touch

dreams of making love

Making LOVE

everywhere

never before

had I want sex

had I desired it

after seeing you

I could not help but to want you

I desired to be with in every way

flashes like memory

come back from past life

started to come

Soul come to soul

sexual intertwined

orgasm after orgasm

with just thoughts of you

A primal urge that is within

wait for the time it can act

wait for that time that is right

pictures from a dream

A picture in a dream

when I was just 14

came the same

on my 28 birthday.

In song I thought

if my love was there

would he see the same sky.

Who is he that I love

I know him not

yet I know him true.

Sometimes it is that the soul

knows what the mind can not

memory came in the form of dreams

of lifetimes that we were one

I often wounder if he can see then too. 

Shiva

Shiva

my lord

the one I belong to

on that night when you came to me

you told me of my child to be

and the father too

thought maybe something

got wrong

I could not see

how it could every be

every day I think of your words

wishing that it will be.

As you are god how can you be wrong

so asked of you

if this is what you truly want

bring him to me

make what needs to happen

for what most be

then word from him

broke out my walls

of thought

let me know

all that I thought

was wrong

and now there is hope

and still a long way to go

but I know everything

is as it should

in the hand of my lord.

wish

A family born in to my mind

you, me and our new born

but how can this be

when you don't even talk to me

for years I have fought

I try so hard remove the thought

but gone never

then a message from thy

simple hope come

that maybe one day it will be

I want a family with you

more then I can every say

I want to carry your child in side me

I want for you to be the dad

I see happiness in your arm

and forever in your heart.

EYES

Lovely eyes

amazing eyes

only heaven I find with in

a simple truth

I love your eyes

and not I don't know why

even in a picture

I get lost in those eyes

like at me

I may melt away

into your eyes.

I cease to exist

and am no more

I become one with you

look in my eyes

talk me in

let me belong to you

MAKE LOVE TO ME

all night long

let us merge and become one.

everything is difference

Change is here change is now

everything is difference

even that which is the same

difference place

difference me

difference way of seeing

difference way of hearing

giving me

a difference way of understanding

a difference way of trusting

a difference way of loving

than I found

I am becoming a difference way of being

and all things start to change one more.

far apart

Near or far

makes no difference

if we can not speak

what is in our hearts and souls

opposites side of the world

is where are trouble start

our cultures make us scared

ones I make near

still I fight with myself

I lie to myself

and still not being able to face you

I go to your city

just because I know you there

it is hard for me to call you

even to tell you I be there

It took a friend to force me to

could it be difference

if I simple took you

or is this the way it was meant to be

moment

Only for a moment we meet

only a few time we spoke

yet you changed my live

more then any I know

How can I thank you

for what you given me

how can I show you

what you mean to me

in past I was bad

I said things I did not mean

I was hurting and covering up to pain

The way I seen

It has been almost four years

since I have meet you

and my feelings are still as

strong as day we meet.

I love you with a kind of blinding obsession

it is heard to control at time

but yet I do

for I know I mush

these past few days

have hard for me

when we talked

you took away my blocks

now I am defenseless

against my feelings for you

I choose to believe that you where a jerk

however, I know that you were not

I told myself you hated me

even god came to my

an told you did not.

Yet I stuck with my stories

for they help my hid

As what is fake disintegrate

I am left wondering

what is to be

Is it time we become friends

or will we be more.

Shiva told me so many years ago

some that was meant to be

now I see hope

and I will wait and see